Chelsea Smile - Bring Me The Horizon

I got a secret.
it's on the tip of my tongue,
it's on the back of my lungs.
and i'm going to keep it.
i know something you don't know.
it sits in silence: eats away at me.
it feeds like cancer.
this guilt could fill a fucking sea.
pulling teeth, wolves at my door.
now falling & failing is all I know.t
his disease is getting worse.
i counted my blessings, now i'll count this curse.
the only thing i really know: i cant sleep at night.
i'm buried and breathing in regret.
and i got a secret.
it's on the tip of my tongue,
it's on the back of my lungs.
and i'm gonna keep it.
i know something you will never know.

NEW HORIZON SONG!!

Went to watch tropic thunder today. Jake came..aww twas so good to see the lanky bitch.

i was super hyper active today. twas quite a hilarious movie. The one thing that sticks in my mind is

"I dont read scripts. Scripts read me."

and something Jack Black says.but its not a very pleasant comment.

LANCE FROM NSYNC makes an appearance.

BAHAHA

And Tom Cruise dancing is fcking weird.

Something making me furious right now...

People who think they know everything about twilight.

People who waited a matter of DAYS for breaking dawn to come out

and people who "like totally love edward cullen..he is so hot i like cant wait for the movie to come out and look at him like"

now im going to admit that im not the oldest twilight fan. but seriously its not a "fad" for me its not something im going to just get over a matter of days after the movie comes out.

AND ITS NOT JUST ABOUT EDWARD CULLEN!. To me that ruins the book, the fact edward cullen is the only thing that the girls pay attention to.

I'd Rather Live Than Live Forever.

IHATE

How Parents think that now your sixteen you deserve to get extra "responsiblities" to worry about because they think you can "handle it".
Yet they still refuse to give you simple responsibilities cause they feel you are too young for such things.

I hate that parents always have to be right..even when they are wrong.

i cant wait to have kids of my own.poor souls.they are gonna have some retarded grandparents.

ON A "HAPPIER"(;D) NOTE

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HAPPY 18TH GARRWAAAAAAYYY (CLARA) LUBB YOOHZZ LOOONNNGG TYYMMZ.

"Once I Saw Jesus On A Tortilla Shell"

I bought "Kurt Cobain Journals"

on saturday i havent read a whole heap but

its really awesome.

I love how he can write anything its not restricted.
But then again it was his journals and it was not intended to be distributed to the public.
I love that even a drugged up rockstar can write the truth (maybe its easier when your high?)..that is after you get over the
bullocks he writes. He states things that everyone is just to chicken shit to say outloud.

Page 18 so far is my favourite page.

"...To be positive at all times is to ignore all that is important, sacred or valuable. To be negative at all times is to be threatened by rediculousness and instant discredibility

...

I feel there is a universal sense amongst our generation that everything has been said and done.true.But who cares it could still be fun to pretend."

Just A Theory

The only reason why couples fight or argue is because they care. They dont want to give up..because giving up shows that they dont care anymore.

...

But I couldn't let you go

No, I never let you go my dear

So keep talking cause I love to hear your voice

-Yeah Boy And Doll Face.

And if there's a God

Then I'm letting Him go

All for you

You alone Raise my hands

At the thought of you leaving me alone

What if I still care

Don't torture me or beg me

- Chemical Kids And Mechanical Brides

you remind her that your future

will be nothing without her

never lose her, I'm afraid

better think of something good to say

but its all been done more than once

I'll keep on trying

-Kissing In Cars

Now you say "We're better off that way"

Now I saw the moon divorce the sky

Is this what it's like

-Diamonds And Why Men Buy Them

All songs by pierce the veil =D

http://www.unwillingraconteur.com/

Okay so basically wong is gonna kill me for blogging instead of reading breaking dawn.

sorry. but i feel likes it xD.

GRANDMA IS ON CAMP FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK no modern or legal with her.

Oh how i miss her.

BREAKING DAWN IS SO FCKING AWESOME LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

ALMOST DONE ALMOST DONE. I really dont want to finish it im gonna miss it =[

I bought pierce the veils album on the weekend. I FOUND A SONG THAT I DIDNT HAVE Currents Convulsive .

Beyond the sea blue light

I met the love of my life

She'd rather see me dead than face me

I like your starry eyes

They yell surprise, surprise

I'm in love...but not for long

Our operation

Call off the operation

At liverpool on monday i had a bit of a hard time with something thats been going on for a while and has seem to take a turn for the worst, but shain said something which made sense.

THE MILK CARTON THEORY.

This theory basically posits that break-ups/crushes can be thought of in terms of a carton of milk. You can leave a carton of milk out of the fridge for a couple of hours, and it should still be fine to drink. Similarly, you can have one of those weird, explosive break-ups of a very short duration and get back together. Or you can like someone A WHOL E HEAP. But when the milk carton stays outside of the fridge too long, watch out! You can refrigerate it all you like, but chances are good that it’s gone sour — or that it’s started the souring process. And a relationship, if left broken for too long, can sour, too. How long is too long? It all depends on the person. You might be able to re-refrigerate the milk, and all might be fine. But you might pour it over your cereal the next morning only to find that it has a strange taste. It’s not sour, but it’s not exactly fresh. It will never be as fresh as it was before. Nothing stays fresh and lovely forever. nothing. no matter how much you wanted it to work. or how much you wanted it to happen. - Can you drink the milk now?

I like how it fits in well with what was bugging me. i realized nothing lasts, crushes, relationships they all die but you need to vaule what was before im not going to remember the sour taste that the milk had after i left it out for too long.I choose to remember the fresh taste it once had because thats the best feeling.

But you choose to keep drinking the milk. and the more you drink the milk the sour its gonna be and your milk has been left out for a long time now. Why cant you accept that both cartons are long over due. CHUCK THEM OUT AND BUY SOME NEW CARTONS OF MILK. Because eventually im going to want to do it for you.

The Strangers

Aaron Gillespie is the nizz shit. I cant wait for underoath when WYD pays me im getting a ticket =]. Fo sho. I never thought you could do acoustic screamo.but TAH-DAH you can. It have it on repeat.

Yesterday i re-watched the dark knight, its so awesome the joker is legendary and so is bat man. But the question i have is how stupid can Gotham City be? Do they not realize that all the stuff batman owns costs MONEY..lost of it and they have resident trillionare Bruce Wayne. Put two and two together kids. Honestly. Its not that hard to figure out. I think batman is my favourite superhero cause he is the most real he didnt get bitten by a spider. he doesnt turn green when provoked. He didnt fall into a vat of radioactive waste. He is just a normal man..well a rich normal man who wants to clean up the shithole he calls home.

Ive been youtubing alot today..and dayuum im going to watch the strangers for aarons birthday and cheebus i was dead scared in the trailer!!!!! its "based on true events"

I LOVE SCARY MOVIES.

BREAKING DAWN OUT IN JUST OVER A WEEK!

Not good enough...- Escape The Fate

Everyone seems to be on hiatus atm.

I have so much to blog about, being lazy prevents me from doing so.

WENT TO ESCAPE THE FATE TONIGHT!

It was so aweosme. rain and cold just made it that little bit more..intresting?

After leaving early from school getting ready getting kit waiting for peter catching trains and buses and waiting in the rain and cold for over and hour and a half. Met up with adam and his friends....Alex (amanda)...Jordy...Daniel and..Eidan? i think thats their names.

WE GOT INTO THE ROUND HOUSE, i bought an ETF band tee. ITS GREEN!

The support acts were A Silent Fiction and The Mission In Motion.

They were so awesome live, they got the crowd so pumped and there were circle pits before the first song even started. I WENT INTO THE CIRCLE PIT =] some random guy was like "dont forget to kick..always kick", so i kicked and i pushed =] YAY ME.

Kit went into the pit and brake danced when they were playing some pansy song and he came back and some guy next to him was like "DUDE YOU ARE MY HERO."

When The Mission In Motion finished playing we allwaited around for like half an hour. SPOTTED: Two chicks making out..one did look like a guy for a while. Some random 18 year olds poured beer on us...i got hit 3 times easy.

THEN ESCAPE THE FATE!. they were so good. i really like craig i didnt think i would but i do!
He had a broken leg, so he wasnt his moshing self though both he and max stage dived off the second level of the round house. I lost my Right shoe, found it, then lost my LEFT SHOE and couldnt find it so i have crushed toes but i went into the wall of death anyways. (like id want to miss that if im getting glory scars they better be cause of something good) WITH ONE SHOE i knocked a fat guy over and i didnt fall GOOD GAME JESSICA! When they were playing Situations or The Guillotine i saw my shoe fly onto the stage..you know how you just KNOW these things and when it was allll over i got my shoe it was where max was standing on stage!!! =]

We finally got out and caught the bus while waiting for our train. Finally i arrived home and showered for like 40 minutes. You dont know what showers feel like until you sweat out like a zillion Gallons of sweat. Im not that tired anymore..just sore.

FCKING AWESOME when they played Not Good Enough i was so happy =]