Monday, February 23, 2009

City in a snowglobe

I really have mixed emotions about hate blogging and ive been trying for a few days not to hate blog, thinking maybe this would end real quick maybe YOU wouldnt drag this out.


Fuck that.




WARNING: Mass amounts of foul mouthed language may appear in the following hate blog.


Block your eyes.


What the fuck did i do wrong? So wrong infact that you cant even talk to me? You cant even bring yourself to tell me you arent talking to me. One of your little "friends" had to come up to me and still put it nicely "your not being ignored, but you are..but you arent...BUT YOU ARE. A cooling down period is required if you have anyproblems we will gladly see to it that it is delivered but there is no guarantee that it will be seen im not on anyones side im a fence sitter i want to see the best outcome because if it does turnout good i wont be hated by either one of you".


Well right now i want to tell you to get fucked you immature wank but why, whats that gonna fix? I read some of the lovely things you said you disliked about me to my BEST FRIEND you dumb fuck did you think i wouldnt see? You hate that im angry all the time? well have you ever stopped to think why im so angry all the time and why i get upset? That maybe your fucking "say before you think" comments arent what ACTUALLY upset me that there is an underlying cause? and that your sick of never winning well maybe if you fucking MANNED UP AND DIDNT BITCH IT you would win and im sorry i thought as a person of your status you were supposed to accept me for who i am. Your "well meant" Pm's on msn are infuriating. fuck your "will it be enough?" fucking bullshit we all know your just trying to buy time to fucking break the bad news to me in a "nice way" that "doesnt make you seem like the bad guy". "oh i was hoping you would be in a better mood tonight i wanted to talk" Is that the only thikn you care about? me being in a good mood so you can have a nice conversation? I tried to calm down i tried not to be so upset for YOUR SAKE. And then i talk LIKE YOU WANTED TO i didnt want to talk about anything because i knew that my mood was still on shaky grounds but i did it for you. And what happens you decide you WANT TO WIN? win at what you fucking cunt? me never EVER showing how i really feel infront of you ever again? And your contradictions YOU COULDNT HANDLE THE FACT THAT YOU THOUGHT I WAS IGNORING YOU for an hour when i WASNT. how the fuck do you think i feel when youve been ignoring me for three days. But its okay for you to "ignore me but not ignore me" but its not okay if i do the same? How about how i feel, all the fucking time, its okay for you to say " i dont like you being angry all the time" but you know for a fact that i WAS NOT angry all the time its the current change in circumstances. Its okay for you to do and say whatever you want its justified in that fucked up mentality of yours.


I dont even know what to say anymore im just so over you and your smart ass "aww i was joking you arent really that fat just big boned" fucking comments. IT FUCKING HURTS YOU DICKHEAD ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SAY IT ENOUGH FUCKING TIMES. That may fly well with your other friends but it doesnt go down well with me.



Well whatever. Keep "cooling down" or whatever it is you claim your doing.



The longer you leave me out of the loop and bitch to my bestfriend the worse its gonna get and be when you finally harden the fuck up and grow big enough balls to finally talk to me. Because as of rightnow im not gonna sit up for all hours of the night thinking "okay maybe just maybe ill get a phonecall or a text message"
Fuck it.

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