"Life Is What You Make Of It"

I keep repeating those words over and over again. Over and over and over. Those words have never been truer.

Im still having a major freak out regardless. What do i say. What do i do. Ive been imagining this situation. Except they were on my terms. When i was ready. Where i wanted to be. What i wanted to say. Now none of that is applicable here.

Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It.

empty hearts and empty places.

I can safely say it has hit me. Its hit me like a ton of bricks.

I may not have known you as well as i should have or as much as i might have liked. You showed me kindness when none of the others would, in fact you went out of your way. I will forever appreciate that simple act of kindness you showed me on multiple occasions. Contrary to what others are doing ill also remember your faults, after all you were human and those faults may have made me dislike you on occasion but you were still an amazing person to have known.

My deepest condolences go out to your family and everyone who was basically family to you.

17 aint so sweet.

Somethings just shouldnt happen when youre 17. Somethings just shouldnt happen at all.

fmd.

And here we go again

With all the things we said

And not a minute spent

To think that we'd regret

So we just take it back,

These words and hold our breath

Forget the things we swore we meant

Happy Birthday Jesus (^)

It really doesn't feel like Christmas. I'm more aware of the biblical importance of today as opposed to the "hallmark" importance.

FUN FACT: Santa used to be green.

Not joking, google it. My marvelous parents bought me a soundwave ticket for christmas and a branddd new 50 inch plasma as a "whole family present". Kudos.

The Beautiful Clara Cam (www.lovelclaraa.blogspot.com) came to my house today, because of her ricealicious background going out on christmas day wasnt a huge deal plus her family and my family are basically one big exotic family. Multiculturalism is a beautiful thing. Just chilled and caught up I've missed her so muchhhhhhhhh (L)

It Tasted Like America. It Tasted Like Freedom.

Cute note from Jesse in one hand and my american candy cane in the other.

Life is brilliant right now.

Saw Where The Wild Things Are with Dylan today, its pretty epic. Totally Digged it..NO I DIDNT CRY! I wanted to though it was cute.

Proper Post Later. Coming Down off my American Sugar Rush. I'm feeling exotic.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.
I get to celebrate christmas twice. One of the many perks of being half australian half serbian. (L)

I cant change the past i locked my keys in the delorian

This post will not contain any talk of results. That is all.

Yesterday I went to the magical land of stockies with the magnificent Taylah Rae. I had to go drop off Rickys paintball tickets which he conveniently left in my bag last friday. So we walked to Alex's house in that god awful heat. Heat + pale complexion = terrible idea. Thanks to rickys "kind" words of encouragement "get the fuck here faster i want to show you our new songs". Speaking of new songs they were really good and worth the trek (Y) Band prac is amazing esp. when you sit right next to ricky while he plays the drums. Helllawwww being deaf by the age of 22. Furthermore, Alex got me addicted to "cat face" which is this really stupid but hilarious cartoon

There are about 17 eps so far, I wish i could decipher his advice at the end of this ep except i cannot, usually they are realllyyyy funny. MEANWHILE our heroine jessica discovered the amazing water spray bottle thing and started attacking people...i.e RICKY me being the staunchy stealthy young man i am. I managed to k.o him..but revenge is sweet and it came in the form of the illusion of boob sweat. fuck you ricky. Ivana came and picked us up and we drove the whole FOUR MINUTES to stockies (Y) (Y) and as soon as i got there i had to leave thanks to the rebellious douche i call my sister. A story in which is not blog worthy.

Jason messages me at abou 9:45 asking if i want to go to his place to eat amazing jason cooked food, which i happily obliged to. Instead we ended up getting kebab at that place on the highway. We were really hesitant at the actual health standards of the place it looked pretty filthy but it tasted sooo good. We ended up walking around chipping norton lake which was really nice but abit spooky. AND GUESS WHATT NO MOZZIE BITES HEELLZZ YEAAHH.

Finally on another note, its nice to be on good terms again, though i still find myself wanting to keep the distance "just in case".

I think its a bad sign that you're the only person who under the circumstances managed to cheer me up somewhat. Terrible sign.

What can you say about a society who says god is dead and elvis is alive?

Okay so the daily post thing is finally down the tube. SMD if you have an issue with that. I've been busy.

The past few days have consisted of:

dying Alex's hair, which believe it or not is harder MUCH harder than dying a girls hair. we were standing in priceline for atleast 20 minutes.

Me: So what about this one?

Alex: Nah its not rich enough.

Me: okay so..this one? oh come on look she has those slut eyes you cant say no to that.

Alex: yeah but its really mousey and she isnt that hot..i like her shes got that i like pretending i dont like it rough look.

To make things worse he wouldnt stop moving and showing people on webcam what i was doing which made me get dye everywhere. But i really like the end result. Im amazing at shaving hair and dying hair. Im just..amazing. Apparently its too dark but guys come on..its amazing. Even lisa says so. OH AND JUST SO WE ARE CLEAR I AM NOT A BLONDE

Sorry for the terrible writing but I AM BRUNETTE GUISE chill the fuck out. But its okay i understand how hot i would look if i went blonde. I actually really wanna go blone but like lady gaga blonde? Well thats what all the dumbass youngin's are calling PLATINUM BLONDE. God guys GROW A BRAIN..read a book or something. Or just read my blog. Simple ;D. Okay so back to my amazing lifestyle. I chilled with Lisa,Ricky and Alex. Which resulted in having an amazing timmmmeeee. And also committing a misdemeanor, look what you do to me lisa.

Went to my cousin Marleys 6th birthday, the food was epic. Ohgod i missed fairy bread.

Spent 3 days at my Other 4 cousins house James, Patrick, Vanessa and Camryn. I have developed an addiction for Shaun the sheep. It is such an amazing cartoon, all of these rebel sheep being all staunch and shit its so hek and their farmer is a ranga. EPIC EPIC WIN.

You can tell they are related to me cause of how good they are at being little shits. The cutest thing happened this morning though.

6:30 am- i hear my door open.
James (hes 9) : oh sorry for waking you. *closes door
7:15 (god damn early i know).
James: Sorry for interrupting your sleep earlier i just wanted to make sure you didnt leave.
Me: i wouldnt leave in the middle of the night james.
James: yeah i know..but you couldve left at 5am without saying goodbye.

Little kids are epic (Y) .

Speaking of little kids, Justin Beiber. What.The.Hell?

And girl your my one love

my one heart

my one life for sure

let me tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)

etc..

HE IS 12

Honestly does he even have armpit hair yet...any hair of the pubic variety?

How can a 12 year old honestly comprehend loving a girl when he doesn't even realize "that funny smell" is his armpits.

Love to ya mum.

The Dreamers EP.

Young Heretics are a duo consisting of Kitty Hart and her boyfriend ex-frontman of the getaway plan Matthew Wright. They are pretty much the polar opposite of what the getaway plan were but i love his voice with this kind of music, although it isnt featured as much as Kitty's is. I just bought their ep from their big cartel site $7 inc. postage which i think was pretty darn amazing plus i couldnt find it anywhere else. Totally worth it.

That is all.

P.S I just got my pay pal receipt, i just gave Matthew Wright $7, oddly enough i got all giddy and excited that my money went directly to him. ;D

Who Brings A Knife To A Gunfight?

Im making an effort to blog everyday, although i dont i still try.

I have this killer sunburn its painful and i hate the sun for harming my pale skin in such a way.

I have this strange addiction to a website www.chictopia.com its basically a fashion site for random people around the world to accumulate "chic" points, which are gained through viewers voting for how "chic" their outfits are. Which i find quite interesting some of the more uglier outfits get alot of points whereas alot of the more..wearable outfits are just dogged.

I cant really think of many of what i consider ugly outfits as "fashion forward" They are ugly in the sense that it looks like they got dressed in the dark with a blind fold on..in a thrift store that sells nothing but horrid pieces that shouldve been burned years ago. Its terrible. Its like rewarding people for looking like douche bags.

I mean im not saying i dress like Agnes Deyn, But i dont throw on my nanas green over sized sun dress, a straw hat and a pair of aviators and then take a photo of it thinking i look like i just finished doing a photo shoot for vouge....and just so we are clear the above description is an accurate account of a photo that one of the "chictopians" posted. I tell no lies.

I have noticed though alot of girls who live in those small cute countries in Europe have amazing style. I have a girl-crush on this girl who has her own blog http://crookedzone.blogspot.com/

Love to ya mum. x.

She Takes Me High.

I got we the kings new album of my uh "friend" the internet today ;D Its called "Smile Kid" Its absolutely ammazzing. Its really up beat, the only bitch remark i have is WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL THINGS MUSICAL DID YOU GUYS DO A COLLABORATION WITH DEMI LO-FREAKING-VATO?!!?!!?! Other than that its an amazing album. I love the song she takes me high. its lovely. Honestly i urge you guys to listen to it.

I went to the magical glebe markets with my wongcakes, and guys..i BOUGHT A SKIRT...A FLORAL PRINT SKIRT..and i love it. like..alot. Best $20 I've ever spent. I had such a lovely time with wong it was such a nice day. It was such good market weather. We've been having such whack weather lately i hate the not knowing its so cool in the morning and then it becomes incredibly hot and i cant take that shit. Im white as i burn easily. I BURN EASY OKAY UV RAYS DO YOU LIKE GIVING ME MELANOMAS HUH DO YA'!?!

On sunday i went on a shopping spree with my mummm and i bought a lovely dress and a bone tank to go with my skirt i wasnt really feelin the black tank with the skirt. I saw the most amazing pair of gladiator sandals but they were about $75 and I'm in "save for christmas" mode i didnt buy them i regret it though cause they were so comfy and so pretty and they fit perfectly.

Something i saw when i was walking through uh i think it was Big W, there are..GOSSIP GIRL SHOES.

Apologies for the dodgy camera work i was just so shocked, its kinda hilarious really. Furthermore on the shoe note, someone please find and then BUY me these amazing boots:

I will love you forever.

I found this sick picture of Gabe Saporta and as i saw it i thought of you, MITCHELL TRAN. Not sure why but anything cobra related made me think of you. (L)

Love to ya mums. xx.

Its okay to be fake.

I find it appalling that the one person i should be able to rely on and trust beyond anyone else is the one person who i cannot rely on. Nor can i believe one word that comes out of your mouth at this stage. I love you. But seriously Reevaluate what your motives are.

Love In Technicolor

Okay, i've appropriately titled my blog with the highly anticipated (by very few cause noone knows who he is) Album by Jesse Barrera. Along with my sudden urge to revamp my wardrobe i went on a massive MASSIVE ebay impulse spree luckily i've been out bid on the things i didn't really want. But what i did buy for a LOVELY $22.75 (inc. postage)

THATS RIGHT a lovellyyyy jesse barrera t-shirt which is full of beauty and wonder. Okay so it isnt exactly the greatest look tee but jesse barrera is amazing, and i thought heyy some friendly support wouldnt hurt. Plus im getting a "free gift" and a "personalized" note in the spirit of christmas. (L)

Jesse Barrera does a cover of..well his own bands song "Tired and Uninspired" with Aj Rafael, i absolutely love this version, its basically the only time i enjoy the presence of Aj haha. Other than that i really dont like him. THATS RIGHT CLARA.

I was supposed to go to hype tonight, but i got bailed on and couldnt find another ride home in time. So im missing out on a good time. I was looking forward to chilling with the kids but ah well. Better luck next time?

Trust - The obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed.

Reliability - that may be relied on; dependable on achievement, accuracy, honesty, etc.

Im losing faith in such words and the fact that people can associate their characteristics with such qualities. Instead the following tend to appear in ones vocabulary.

Selfish - devoted to caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one' s own interests, benefits, welfare etc.

Lie - a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth.

I'm not about to turn around and call myself perfect but i do try to be honest and reliable. Now that schools over its hard to find a balance between everything we've all had a routine for 6 years and now we have to establish a new one thus shaking foundations and forcing us to reevaluate our priorities. And for that i apologise, but i do not find myself having to lie about a situation nor do i find myself cancelling plans to create others. And for that i find myself losing faith in everything we once stood for, how can i put my faith in people who lie and manipulate and hurt others while still remaining ignorant, stubborn and in denial of the wrongdoings they have committed?

My dad always told my sister and i that when you lie you may be forgiven once maybe twice, but people remember what you've done and said and eventually if you keep it up noone will want to associate with a liar.

This love will tear us apart.

A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR ANDREW HUYNH!!!

18 BUD. LIVE IT UP!!!

I went into DIY madness this afternoon i dyed my jeans which lead to dying another pair of jeans which lead to dying a tshirt and distressing a pair of old black skinnies i found the other day. Im quite the awsome right now. As a result i have blue hands and blue legs.

Looks live ive been involved in promiscuous activities with a smurf.
Ill post photos up of my masterpieces once theyve dried and such.

I've been helping a certain friend with a breakup and he keeps lecturing me on how im always right with the advice i give him. Its one of those situations in which i should follow my own advice yet i fail to. Though i find helping him with his breakup helped alot with mine in terms of understanding things i chose to ignore which is always magnificent to hear :) Sometimes it just takes some perspective. Or something along those lines.

On another note, my number one is feeling abit down today so i thought id cheer her up abit

That love goes both ways beautiful ;D cheer up. (L)(L)

Silence Isnt Golden.

ITS A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!! IM BACKKKKKK!!!!

It took me a while but i finally got off my lazy ass and decided to blog.

December 1st, the first day of summer. And i think it reached like a maximum of 19 degrees. Epic fail mother nature. Epic Fail.

In other news our BRAND SPANKIN NEW and our third(?) opposition leader Tony Abbott was announced today. Now Personally I'm ecstatic to know that our potential prime minster in the event of a re-election stands for Speedos and doesn't stand for contraceptives. You're a real champ man (Y) *note.sarcasm.

I cannot wait for friday. HYPE @ CASTLE HILL. STATE OF EAST LONDON, RESIST THE THOUGHT, PRAY FOR DEATH + more TBA. super super stoked. Cannot wait to see the gang. Alex, Ricky, Taylah, Edencakes.

Friday marked my first ever golf buggy experience. One in which i will not soon forget. My dear, dear uncle you hire the most goodlooking males. Kudos to you, i knew we were related for a reason. Has anyone ever seen on tv that "im the guy and im gonna teach the girl how to play golf so i can touch her" maneuver? Yes? If not youtube it i couldnt find it. But ill explain the male stands behind the female in which he proceeds to put his arms around her ultimately ending up in an awkward stance looking quite strange to spectators and sometimes ending up (much to the males happiness) a HOT PASSIONATE..kiss haha. Well guess what.. i was involved in said cliche minus the HOT PASSIONATE kiss. Though it was doubly awkward especially cause i didnt even know the guy. Thanks Matt for forcing me to play the final hole of golf. I WAS VIOLATED.

I cant wait to see ZOMBIELAND!!!!!!!!!!! Really keen on watching it Anyone up for it with me?


That Is All.