"Life Is What You Make Of It"

I keep repeating those words over and over again. Over and over and over. Those words have never been truer.

Im still having a major freak out regardless. What do i say. What do i do. Ive been imagining this situation. Except they were on my terms. When i was ready. Where i wanted to be. What i wanted to say. Now none of that is applicable here.

Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It. Life Is What You Make Of It.

empty hearts and empty places.

I can safely say it has hit me. Its hit me like a ton of bricks.

I may not have known you as well as i should have or as much as i might have liked. You showed me kindness when none of the others would, in fact you went out of your way. I will forever appreciate that simple act of kindness you showed me on multiple occasions. Contrary to what others are doing ill also remember your faults, after all you were human and those faults may have made me dislike you on occasion but you were still an amazing person to have known.

My deepest condolences go out to your family and everyone who was basically family to you.

17 aint so sweet.

Somethings just shouldnt happen when youre 17. Somethings just shouldnt happen at all.

fmd.

And here we go again

With all the things we said

And not a minute spent

To think that we'd regret

So we just take it back,

These words and hold our breath

Forget the things we swore we meant

Happy Birthday Jesus (^)

It really doesn't feel like Christmas. I'm more aware of the biblical importance of today as opposed to the "hallmark" importance.

FUN FACT: Santa used to be green.

Not joking, google it. My marvelous parents bought me a soundwave ticket for christmas and a branddd new 50 inch plasma as a "whole family present". Kudos.

The Beautiful Clara Cam (www.lovelclaraa.blogspot.com) came to my house today, because of her ricealicious background going out on christmas day wasnt a huge deal plus her family and my family are basically one big exotic family. Multiculturalism is a beautiful thing. Just chilled and caught up I've missed her so muchhhhhhhhh (L)

It Tasted Like America. It Tasted Like Freedom.

Cute note from Jesse in one hand and my american candy cane in the other.

Life is brilliant right now.

Saw Where The Wild Things Are with Dylan today, its pretty epic. Totally Digged it..NO I DIDNT CRY! I wanted to though it was cute.

Proper Post Later. Coming Down off my American Sugar Rush. I'm feeling exotic.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.
I get to celebrate christmas twice. One of the many perks of being half australian half serbian. (L)

I cant change the past i locked my keys in the delorian

This post will not contain any talk of results. That is all.

Yesterday I went to the magical land of stockies with the magnificent Taylah Rae. I had to go drop off Rickys paintball tickets which he conveniently left in my bag last friday. So we walked to Alex's house in that god awful heat. Heat + pale complexion = terrible idea. Thanks to rickys "kind" words of encouragement "get the fuck here faster i want to show you our new songs". Speaking of new songs they were really good and worth the trek (Y) Band prac is amazing esp. when you sit right next to ricky while he plays the drums. Helllawwww being deaf by the age of 22. Furthermore, Alex got me addicted to "cat face" which is this really stupid but hilarious cartoon

There are about 17 eps so far, I wish i could decipher his advice at the end of this ep except i cannot, usually they are realllyyyy funny. MEANWHILE our heroine jessica discovered the amazing water spray bottle thing and started attacking people...i.e RICKY me being the staunchy stealthy young man i am. I managed to k.o him..but revenge is sweet and it came in the form of the illusion of boob sweat. fuck you ricky. Ivana came and picked us up and we drove the whole FOUR MINUTES to stockies (Y) (Y) and as soon as i got there i had to leave thanks to the rebellious douche i call my sister. A story in which is not blog worthy.

Jason messages me at abou 9:45 asking if i want to go to his place to eat amazing jason cooked food, which i happily obliged to. Instead we ended up getting kebab at that place on the highway. We were really hesitant at the actual health standards of the place it looked pretty filthy but it tasted sooo good. We ended up walking around chipping norton lake which was really nice but abit spooky. AND GUESS WHATT NO MOZZIE BITES HEELLZZ YEAAHH.

Finally on another note, its nice to be on good terms again, though i still find myself wanting to keep the distance "just in case".

I think its a bad sign that you're the only person who under the circumstances managed to cheer me up somewhat. Terrible sign.

What can you say about a society who says god is dead and elvis is alive?

Okay so the daily post thing is finally down the tube. SMD if you have an issue with that. I've been busy.

The past few days have consisted of:

dying Alex's hair, which believe it or not is harder MUCH harder than dying a girls hair. we were standing in priceline for atleast 20 minutes.

Me: So what about this one?

Alex: Nah its not rich enough.

Me: okay so..this one? oh come on look she has those slut eyes you cant say no to that.

Alex: yeah but its really mousey and she isnt that hot..i like her shes got that i like pretending i dont like it rough look.

To make things worse he wouldnt stop moving and showing people on webcam what i was doing which made me get dye everywhere. But i really like the end result. Im amazing at shaving hair and dying hair. Im just..amazing. Apparently its too dark but guys come on..its amazing. Even lisa says so. OH AND JUST SO WE ARE CLEAR I AM NOT A BLONDE

Sorry for the terrible writing but I AM BRUNETTE GUISE chill the fuck out. But its okay i understand how hot i would look if i went blonde. I actually really wanna go blone but like lady gaga blonde? Well thats what all the dumbass youngin's are calling PLATINUM BLONDE. God guys GROW A BRAIN..read a book or something. Or just read my blog. Simple ;D. Okay so back to my amazing lifestyle. I chilled with Lisa,Ricky and Alex. Which resulted in having an amazing timmmmeeee. And also committing a misdemeanor, look what you do to me lisa.

Went to my cousin Marleys 6th birthday, the food was epic. Ohgod i missed fairy bread.

Spent 3 days at my Other 4 cousins house James, Patrick, Vanessa and Camryn. I have developed an addiction for Shaun the sheep. It is such an amazing cartoon, all of these rebel sheep being all staunch and shit its so hek and their farmer is a ranga. EPIC EPIC WIN.

You can tell they are related to me cause of how good they are at being little shits. The cutest thing happened this morning though.

6:30 am- i hear my door open.
James (hes 9) : oh sorry for waking you. *closes door
7:15 (god damn early i know).
James: Sorry for interrupting your sleep earlier i just wanted to make sure you didnt leave.
Me: i wouldnt leave in the middle of the night james.
James: yeah i know..but you couldve left at 5am without saying goodbye.

Little kids are epic (Y) .

Speaking of little kids, Justin Beiber. What.The.Hell?

And girl your my one love

my one heart

my one life for sure

let me tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)

etc..

HE IS 12

Honestly does he even have armpit hair yet...any hair of the pubic variety?

How can a 12 year old honestly comprehend loving a girl when he doesn't even realize "that funny smell" is his armpits.

Love to ya mum.

The Dreamers EP.

Young Heretics are a duo consisting of Kitty Hart and her boyfriend ex-frontman of the getaway plan Matthew Wright. They are pretty much the polar opposite of what the getaway plan were but i love his voice with this kind of music, although it isnt featured as much as Kitty's is. I just bought their ep from their big cartel site $7 inc. postage which i think was pretty darn amazing plus i couldnt find it anywhere else. Totally worth it.

That is all.

P.S I just got my pay pal receipt, i just gave Matthew Wright $7, oddly enough i got all giddy and excited that my money went directly to him. ;D

Who Brings A Knife To A Gunfight?

Im making an effort to blog everyday, although i dont i still try.

I have this killer sunburn its painful and i hate the sun for harming my pale skin in such a way.

I have this strange addiction to a website www.chictopia.com its basically a fashion site for random people around the world to accumulate "chic" points, which are gained through viewers voting for how "chic" their outfits are. Which i find quite interesting some of the more uglier outfits get alot of points whereas alot of the more..wearable outfits are just dogged.

I cant really think of many of what i consider ugly outfits as "fashion forward" They are ugly in the sense that it looks like they got dressed in the dark with a blind fold on..in a thrift store that sells nothing but horrid pieces that shouldve been burned years ago. Its terrible. Its like rewarding people for looking like douche bags.

I mean im not saying i dress like Agnes Deyn, But i dont throw on my nanas green over sized sun dress, a straw hat and a pair of aviators and then take a photo of it thinking i look like i just finished doing a photo shoot for vouge....and just so we are clear the above description is an accurate account of a photo that one of the "chictopians" posted. I tell no lies.

I have noticed though alot of girls who live in those small cute countries in Europe have amazing style. I have a girl-crush on this girl who has her own blog http://crookedzone.blogspot.com/

Love to ya mum. x.

She Takes Me High.

I got we the kings new album of my uh "friend" the internet today ;D Its called "Smile Kid" Its absolutely ammazzing. Its really up beat, the only bitch remark i have is WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL THINGS MUSICAL DID YOU GUYS DO A COLLABORATION WITH DEMI LO-FREAKING-VATO?!!?!!?! Other than that its an amazing album. I love the song she takes me high. its lovely. Honestly i urge you guys to listen to it.

I went to the magical glebe markets with my wongcakes, and guys..i BOUGHT A SKIRT...A FLORAL PRINT SKIRT..and i love it. like..alot. Best $20 I've ever spent. I had such a lovely time with wong it was such a nice day. It was such good market weather. We've been having such whack weather lately i hate the not knowing its so cool in the morning and then it becomes incredibly hot and i cant take that shit. Im white as i burn easily. I BURN EASY OKAY UV RAYS DO YOU LIKE GIVING ME MELANOMAS HUH DO YA'!?!

On sunday i went on a shopping spree with my mummm and i bought a lovely dress and a bone tank to go with my skirt i wasnt really feelin the black tank with the skirt. I saw the most amazing pair of gladiator sandals but they were about $75 and I'm in "save for christmas" mode i didnt buy them i regret it though cause they were so comfy and so pretty and they fit perfectly.

Something i saw when i was walking through uh i think it was Big W, there are..GOSSIP GIRL SHOES.

Apologies for the dodgy camera work i was just so shocked, its kinda hilarious really. Furthermore on the shoe note, someone please find and then BUY me these amazing boots:

I will love you forever.

I found this sick picture of Gabe Saporta and as i saw it i thought of you, MITCHELL TRAN. Not sure why but anything cobra related made me think of you. (L)

Love to ya mums. xx.

Its okay to be fake.

I find it appalling that the one person i should be able to rely on and trust beyond anyone else is the one person who i cannot rely on. Nor can i believe one word that comes out of your mouth at this stage. I love you. But seriously Reevaluate what your motives are.

Love In Technicolor

Okay, i've appropriately titled my blog with the highly anticipated (by very few cause noone knows who he is) Album by Jesse Barrera. Along with my sudden urge to revamp my wardrobe i went on a massive MASSIVE ebay impulse spree luckily i've been out bid on the things i didn't really want. But what i did buy for a LOVELY $22.75 (inc. postage)

THATS RIGHT a lovellyyyy jesse barrera t-shirt which is full of beauty and wonder. Okay so it isnt exactly the greatest look tee but jesse barrera is amazing, and i thought heyy some friendly support wouldnt hurt. Plus im getting a "free gift" and a "personalized" note in the spirit of christmas. (L)

Jesse Barrera does a cover of..well his own bands song "Tired and Uninspired" with Aj Rafael, i absolutely love this version, its basically the only time i enjoy the presence of Aj haha. Other than that i really dont like him. THATS RIGHT CLARA.

I was supposed to go to hype tonight, but i got bailed on and couldnt find another ride home in time. So im missing out on a good time. I was looking forward to chilling with the kids but ah well. Better luck next time?

Trust - The obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed.

Reliability - that may be relied on; dependable on achievement, accuracy, honesty, etc.

Im losing faith in such words and the fact that people can associate their characteristics with such qualities. Instead the following tend to appear in ones vocabulary.

Selfish - devoted to caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one' s own interests, benefits, welfare etc.

Lie - a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth.

I'm not about to turn around and call myself perfect but i do try to be honest and reliable. Now that schools over its hard to find a balance between everything we've all had a routine for 6 years and now we have to establish a new one thus shaking foundations and forcing us to reevaluate our priorities. And for that i apologise, but i do not find myself having to lie about a situation nor do i find myself cancelling plans to create others. And for that i find myself losing faith in everything we once stood for, how can i put my faith in people who lie and manipulate and hurt others while still remaining ignorant, stubborn and in denial of the wrongdoings they have committed?

My dad always told my sister and i that when you lie you may be forgiven once maybe twice, but people remember what you've done and said and eventually if you keep it up noone will want to associate with a liar.

This love will tear us apart.

A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR ANDREW HUYNH!!!

18 BUD. LIVE IT UP!!!

I went into DIY madness this afternoon i dyed my jeans which lead to dying another pair of jeans which lead to dying a tshirt and distressing a pair of old black skinnies i found the other day. Im quite the awsome right now. As a result i have blue hands and blue legs.

Looks live ive been involved in promiscuous activities with a smurf.
Ill post photos up of my masterpieces once theyve dried and such.

I've been helping a certain friend with a breakup and he keeps lecturing me on how im always right with the advice i give him. Its one of those situations in which i should follow my own advice yet i fail to. Though i find helping him with his breakup helped alot with mine in terms of understanding things i chose to ignore which is always magnificent to hear :) Sometimes it just takes some perspective. Or something along those lines.

On another note, my number one is feeling abit down today so i thought id cheer her up abit

That love goes both ways beautiful ;D cheer up. (L)(L)

Silence Isnt Golden.

ITS A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!! IM BACKKKKKK!!!!

It took me a while but i finally got off my lazy ass and decided to blog.

December 1st, the first day of summer. And i think it reached like a maximum of 19 degrees. Epic fail mother nature. Epic Fail.

In other news our BRAND SPANKIN NEW and our third(?) opposition leader Tony Abbott was announced today. Now Personally I'm ecstatic to know that our potential prime minster in the event of a re-election stands for Speedos and doesn't stand for contraceptives. You're a real champ man (Y) *note.sarcasm.

I cannot wait for friday. HYPE @ CASTLE HILL. STATE OF EAST LONDON, RESIST THE THOUGHT, PRAY FOR DEATH + more TBA. super super stoked. Cannot wait to see the gang. Alex, Ricky, Taylah, Edencakes.

Friday marked my first ever golf buggy experience. One in which i will not soon forget. My dear, dear uncle you hire the most goodlooking males. Kudos to you, i knew we were related for a reason. Has anyone ever seen on tv that "im the guy and im gonna teach the girl how to play golf so i can touch her" maneuver? Yes? If not youtube it i couldnt find it. But ill explain the male stands behind the female in which he proceeds to put his arms around her ultimately ending up in an awkward stance looking quite strange to spectators and sometimes ending up (much to the males happiness) a HOT PASSIONATE..kiss haha. Well guess what.. i was involved in said cliche minus the HOT PASSIONATE kiss. Though it was doubly awkward especially cause i didnt even know the guy. Thanks Matt for forcing me to play the final hole of golf. I WAS VIOLATED.

I cant wait to see ZOMBIELAND!!!!!!!!!!! Really keen on watching it Anyone up for it with me?


That Is All.

EVERYONE

is for reals blogging now. starting tomorrow night i can and will start blogging again.

Love to yo-yos

Although i dont really have the energy to blog im gonna do it.

Today was UMAQ/UMAC? open day. went with the ever so lovely wong.
Trackworks sucks (N) just sayin' what everyones thinking.
But train rides are always fun with wong.
I pretty much love your mum btw wong :D

so we ran into ray at strathfield and kept running into him after that.
FREE V AND FREE REUSABLE PONCHOS!! etc.
We walked into the business building and i faked an interest in an accounting degree JUST to get a yo-yo. totally worth it though.
I LOVE INCONSPICUOUS FREEBIES.
SAW KIKI!
got lost.
SAW THE CAMEELLSSS. they were like almost 100 years old.
and they were resting AND EVEN THE CAMEL MAN SAID THAT THEY SPIT and what guys and what.
Then we got lost.
Then decided to go shopping. BOUGHT A BRAND SPANKIN NEW WALLET.
went a little crazy at city beach with hats.

Then continued to train ride home all while playing with yo-yos and taking maddd photos.
cause im a badass photaagghraapphhaaaa..
and wongs just a badass yo-yo-ah.

END RESLUT OF TODAY:
* new wallet.
*new love for yoyos.
*could possibly dig umac.
* slight dehydration as i didnt drink enough water.
*slight sunburn.
*best pens evuuhh.
*LOVEERRLLYY day with wongald ;D

diediediedie

so i feel like death warmed up

Art exam tomorrow.
i hope im not this sick in the morning (N)

on the bright side finally got around to re-downloading all of versaemerge's Eps

YM@6(L)

okay so ive known about this for a few days now but i keep forgetting to blog it because well ive been busy so here it is

YOU ME AT SIX WILL BE AT SOUNDWAVE 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Its pretty known that PARAMORE will be in the line-up along with the few confirmed bands such as gallows and dance gavin dance (N) but personally ive already seen paramore and they're great

but ohmygod YOU ME AT SIX (L)

8.14 - Arist vs Poet

Ah trials start tomorrow, oddly enough im not nervous..yet
GOOD LUCK EVERYYOONE :) (L)

Yesterday I went with Tayla to get her lip ring changed, i have a girlcrush on the chick that works at Industrie8 she makes me want to get a surface piercing on my cheek bone and on my nape thats how hot she makes weird pericings look. I think ive decided on getting a surface on the inside of my wrist. IVE ASKED AND YES ITS PERFECTLY SAFE..Its just the healing process thats 50/50 because of all the movement.

Then we went to visit Lala while her brother Emanuel played football at the field near my house. Ventured there with my newly dyed hair which i must admit I'm slowly starting to like it makes me look older..i got stared at by 2 guys who normally wouldnt be into a lady like me. It made me feel quite hot ;) haha. So anyway, we were hanging out and chatting and then some of the lights on the pitch go out ten- twenty minutes into the game. So we wait and it still doesnt come on so they called the game off so tayla and i raided woolies then went back to her house and just hung out.

Im not really dreading the trials sooner they come the sooner they're over.
I cant wait for wednesday and Friday my wonderful days off
Wednesday: daniels house
Friday: Daniels house then THE BRIDDEEEEE (L)

YESSSSSSSS.

and this is exactly why i wish to marry John O'Callaghan

www.textsfromlastnight.com

My current obsession.
FML.com
no thanks.

(858): I cant wait for the day that I tell my daughter I named her after my favorite porn star.

(434): why are there goldfish crackers all over my bed?
(540): you decided you wanted to name them & keep them as pets.

(972): I just followed up on a noise complaint...only to find 2 girls in bikinis covered in jello with beer cans everywhere. I couldn't bring myself to bust that party.
(1-972): I want to be a cop.

(201): When my kids ask how I lost my virginity Im going to have to tell them of a mythical thing called "Myspace" and how strangers could lure you into their "den of love" thanks to clever quotes and graphics

They wont be using their wands they'll be using their rhymes.

LOL.

Darling- Eyes Set To Kill.

Ive come to realise i havent posted a legitimate excuse for a post in awhile.

Holidays are nearing an end but my brain still refuses to tick over into "get assessments done" mode. I want to cry in shame. I woke up friday morning and had my textbooks and notes out and ready to get ancient history over and done with. I sat around all day myspace whoring and movie watching.
I AM DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF.

I swore that saturday would be another day. The day in which I WILL WORK. Instead i made the choice to go to parramatta with my gracious mother who was sick but still took me with the intention to take me on a "birthday shopping spree" but alas we both had no energy to look.

Instead i bought myself the most amazingly warm purple pullover hoodie $13, an oversized grey pullover top $13 (not sure if im willing to test the boundaries of outdoor and indoor capabilities of this yet). And mother dearest bought me an adorable black Crochet vest $17 and the best long black cardi i have ever purchased in my life i think this was WOOO.

I decided to run into JB-Hifi just to "check" what they had as i always do.
STORY TIME!
Everytime i go shopping with a certain Daniel Bunyan he looks for A Skylit Drives album Adelphia and he NEVER finds it.
END STORY.
So as im parousing Jb i come across. Oh what A SKYLIT DRIVES ALBUM.
So naturally being the good girlfriend i am i called him and told him i was buying it so he doesnt have to bitch about never being able to find it.
I think this is the first time I've ever bought an album and havent opened it and eagerly looked at the album art in the booklet and the "thank yous" it KILLED ME. But i finally gave into my urges and after permission to open it.
I did.

My father has given me permission to get a pet Rabbit.
I've decided to name him paco.
I think theres talk of getting two rabbits i guess that means my sister is gonna be able to name the other one

Theres Still the question of what to name the goldfish im getting.
Any ideas?

<3

I would totally sell my left testicle on the black market

Just to look like Hanna Beth

Youve got my head spinning heart beating out of my chest (8)

IMMENSE SIGH OF RELIEF

Man oh man i was shaking like a mother fucker for a second there.

I feel reassurance.







FTSK- I dont know about you but i came here to dance

Revenge Of The Fallen

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX MARSHALL
(and a friendly reminder 8DAYSTILLMINE)

My sister is currently watching transformers 2, thus meaning im missing out on the simpsons marathon on Fox 8. Well its not a marathon but its about 10 back to back eps of the simpsons and they are all new eps. Not happy Jan.

So I've reduced myself to listening to there for tomorrow again and looking at gig shots on flickr.

Ive come to realize that there are 2 bands that never get bad shots taken of them (that is by the photographers who use actual digital SLR cameras and not camera phones)
Underoath is one of them I think as usually its photos of spencer his hair enables the shot to be amazing (and the stage lighting is always a bonus)Another Band is Bring Me The Horizon again yes most photos are taken of oli but there is no denying how good they actually are.
There are ALOT of really good live shots out there. I think they are my favourite i can spend hours just looking at them all. Hardcore bands tend to have better photos i think because they all go so damn crazy and get so much more into it and theres more variety in the shot. Thats not saying other bands and artists dont but its just my opinion.
I found a photo of Hayley Williams on flickr it looks like such a hardcore shot i was suprised at who it was. I love this photo oh so much indeed :)
Ive been trying to find a whole bunch of new music to listen to my playlists are becoming boring and repetitive ive found a couple.
Theres a band called Sunset Shootout that have this slow jam rnb sound to them
im very into "here with you" by them.
In the mean time heres there for tomorrows video for A little Faster- Oh and a photo of Christoper the drummer cause he is just lovely :)
okay..maybe another one cause i couldnt decide.

"sorry but im kind of seeing someone right now"

I went walking with tayla today and we discussed a certain person and their reptuation to sleep around. This persons excuse for why they did what they did was that they were screwed over by their ex and then they didnt technically cheat because they were only seeing this person.

But what is seeing someone?
Ive been googling the term "seeing someone" and most sites recognize it as the act of sex.
URBAN DICTIONARY
'Unofficially' going steady with someone. Dating without the boy/girlfriend 'label'.
Is sometimes used to describe a relationship where individuals are having casual sex and are not actually 'item'.
In reality i think no one actually has a definition of seeing someone, or more everyone has their own definition. Theres always the never ending question of what it means.
Its kinda stupid in my opinion.

What happened to the good ol' days when women were "courted" then a proposal was made and then they were married usually before they even reached the age of 18?
yeah thats when the days were good..haha.

Just A Little Faster.

I downloaded the zune media player AHH HOW SEXYY IS IT!!!
so much better than itunes.
Ive had " Just a little faster" by there for tomorrow basically on repeat all morning. I watched the film clip for it. Maika is such a loveely name he also has a veryyy lovely face and a VERY LOVELY voice . Chris Kamrada the drummer is adoreable also. Why the hell am i going on about their looks? thats not the point haha.

I've been doing my usual over thinking over a simple SIMPLE sentence.
I never thought that one sentence could do so much to my brain.
It feels like its going to EXPLODDE.
I keep analysing the "events" and either you are confused
or youre just waiting for the right moment?
Or maybe youre just over it all?

on yet another note has anyone listened to Ignorance by Paramore? Its epic. I have a feeling "Brand New Eyes" is going to be better than "riot"

"Show me what youre after just a little faster"

"I LOVE WONG BEST"

Career Search was today it was good but shit at the same time.
I thought i was closer to my chosen career but sadly I dont think i am.
Advance Diploma of Marketing entertainment and music is just a fancy way of saying "you can do this yourself or in tafe but we wanna milk you for all of your $$$$"
But oh i really wanna do it.

HOWEVER
It was lovely to see so many old and familiar faces.
(L)

I signed up for the electoral roll today. I know cheesus im only turning 17 in 12 days. so ill be 18 in one year and 12 days. Why sign up now? I dont know what came over me, but i did it.

Our school FINALLY gave us decent transportation. Transportation in the form of a double decker coach. You might be thinking "so fucking what" but in all of my schooling life i only ever recall having shit coaches and buses. This marked an important milestone in every year 12 cvhs students life. Ah so much talking about the bus. ITS A BUS!!!

Im really looking forward to this weekend MCA (L)!
What else is there to do in the city?

I cant watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince when it comes out.Im working all day Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. So i hope to be watching it on saturday if Wongy agrees that is :)

Im Not A Thief, I'm A Treasure Hunter

Just thought i would do what kim did. hahah nothing else to do really...


10 things you wish to say to 10 different people.

1. You worry me so fucking much. Honestly woman you will be the death of me.

2. I feel the need to be on good terms with you..all the time

3. I hate you beyond compare.

4. I cannot believe i just said everything ive ever wanted to say..to you of all people. the ex-enemy.

5. What happened. We used to be so much more than what is left.

6. You have no idea how different everything feels this time.

7. I think youre pathetic. I love you. But thats just how i see you.

8. People shouldnt underestimate you.

9. You need to stop being a sheep.

10. (to the same person as point 2) why do i want to mention you..again?

9 things about yourself.

1. I Judge.

2. I hide my feelings far too much.

3. I really can be a hater

4. I think im boring

5. I want to travel

6. Im far too lazy for my own good

7. I think the best feeling in the world is when you can feel the music.

8. Im a thinker.

9. Im a reader.

8 ways to win your heart.

1. Be realistic.( good one kim)

2. Be honest.

3. Be spontaneous.

4. FIGHT BACK.

5. Good music?

6. Style. Please.

7. Suprise me.

8. Passion.

7 things that crosses your mind alot.

1. The one i love to loathe.

2. My failings

3. Friends

4. Mr. Right now.

5. family.

6. Whatever i just read.

7. what i really wanted to say or what i shouldve said.

6 things you do before bed time.

1. Drink juice usually.

2. A visit to lou..i mean the loo.

3. Shower

4. Read

5. Just lay there

6. Im usually texting right before i sleep.

5 people who mean a lot to you ( in no order!)

1. Mother

2. Tayla

3. Friends as a whole

4. Clara

5. Sister (more than i let on)

4 things im wearing right now.

1. Black trackies

2. Odd Socks (cause i can)

3. IKTPQ/BMTH tee

4. Underwear..of the bonds style.

3. songs that I listen to often.

1. Im not a thief, Im a treasure Hunter- A Skylit Drive

2. At A Guess Im Second Best- All Forgotten

3. An Infallible Remedy- Artist Vs Poet

2 things you want to do before I die

1. Do what i want.

2. Be happy. who doesnt?

1 confession.

1. I have far too much to confess.

runaway- artist vs poet

Let the green eyed monster lash out.

You Left Me - The Maine

Someone please get me Mike Fuentes Or John O'Callaghan for my birthday? K'thx.

Mike Fuentes (L)
John O'Callaghan.


*I hate how you trampled on his feelings and expected him to be the same.

* I'm relieved youre happy for me Honestly IMMENSE sigh of relief. love you oh so much.

* I worry about you....alot. Are you really okay?

* I feel horrible for hating on you for so long, you didnt do anything wrong.

* I dont trust you. And that is exactly why i talk to you. I know he knows more than you let on. Have you ever stopped to consider that was my plan?

* I have no respect for you.

* I keep thinking you'll like her more than you like me.

* If you stopped complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. Maybe things would be better for you. Self Pity never got anyone anywhere.

* When you leave next year, whats going to happen? A year with no communication. We may never be the same again!

* My theory is, you control our choices because you failed at your own. Wake up Noone likes what you think is "beautiful". Stupid Bitch.

* Still waiting for your excuses.

* You know how to make me laugh at the most unexpected moments. I love that.

OHMYG i sound so pessimistic. I really tried to keep it loverly.

One Month ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAIN(19th), REBECCA(20th), MATT (21st)
Well todays the 21st of June. That means ONE MONTH till my birthday.
So ive decided to make a list of what i want, just in case anyone wants to buy me a lil somethin' ;)

many of you would recognise the BRUTAL braclet as worn by Hanna Beth there are about 3 i want from her site guess which ones ;) Shes done a collaboration with glamour kills (L) www.jacvanek.net

The new range of drop dead clothing is (L) anything drop dead would make me a happy man (Y)
www.iheartdropdead.com

Ahh yummy i MUST have a zune (L)

I really dont care if or what you get me
id just love it cause you guys got me something..
awww how sweet of you jessica i hear you say.
yes.it IS sweet of me :)

Kill The Arcade

Okay so i know i should be working on my ancient assessment but the way i look at it if tayla didnt bail on our skins marathon id be watching cook and effy bang so it doesnt matter. IVE BEEN YOUUUTUUBBIIINNGGGG (L)(L)(L)





Kill the arcade- Happy Birthday Bermuda Triangle now they are known as wolf am i. it makes me sad i like wolf am i but i prefered them as Kill The Arcade






Open the skies- He spoke of success. These guys have better songs but this is how i found them :)






i remember listening to these guys agessss ago. i (L)(L)(L) themm (Y)

i might make a proper post later .

That Boy That Girl.

Im totally digging HADOUKEN! I didnt get that into them when there was that massive hype around them about this time last year. They werent my sound but i LOVE them as of about a week ago. Im currently inlove with the remix they do of The Prayer by bloc party. its epic. I have this little for James the vocalist..i think its only because i love the way he says hadouken plus his accent is lovely.

Another thing i love is sink into me by Taking Back Sunday. The lyrics are adorable :)

I'd like to be a note, the kind
You could sing but don't because you're shy
That way I live inside your throat
And hang from every word you...spoke

The old second/Backup (?) vocalist fred (thanks wongy) left TBS, i love the vocals of the new guy JOHN. i mean Fred was really good but the new dude is heaps good (Y). I miss watching Adams mic swings, which is why instead of posting up the actual music vid for sink into me i stuck up them playing it on Jimmy Kimmel..who is Jimmy Kimmel anyway?




Today has been such a crap day. I hate parents.

However.

What i do want to know is how long youve been hiding your eagerness to bang my ex boyfriend?
baby, I thought we were friends? Clearly not.

Oh sweetcheeks. If and when you get him I hope that everytime he kisses you or says something that makes you smile that you just remember that i was there first and that he's said it all to me before he even thought about those lovely two faces of yours.

So baby. Have my seconds.

My Tempreature Rising- The Audition

UP-AND-COMING RELEASES/ NEW RELEASES:

There are oh so many more: MY AMERICAN HEART, Taking back sunday, a skylit drive. and oh so many mores. IM SO EXCITED. Bankrupt? yes.

I Hustle Everyday

Im officially bankrupt.
I neeeed more money.
I need a better job.
oh well. ill get it.

Im really addicted to deez nuts at the moment, ive always listened to them but at the moment i cannot get enough of them. They are playing at the manning on the 4th of july for their Drunk and Disorderly Tour. I WANT TO GO.

speaking of wanting things and the month of july
MY BIRTHDAY IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!
Sweet 17? Mother dearest said i could have a party for my 17th at the new house because i didnt end up doing anything for my 16th. Love it?!
There are many things i want for my birthday alot of them are international purchases.

This long weekend was terribly boring, wouldve had a better time at school today.
okay thats a lie i enjoyed sleeping in, but im still realllyyy tired.
Sick?

I hustle every day

Traitors Never Play Hangman

HATER: It most commonly refers to individuals whose negativity is so extreme that it is all-consuming. However, there are various levels and forms of being a hater, ranging from completely dismissing any positive traits or actions, to merely painting a less than flattering picture by using words with negative connotations. Hating is often attributed to jealousy, but just as often, it seems to stem from some other source.

I dont think im a hater..well not a hater just negative, its just easier to dislike things and people after all.

If you:

dont let yourself get too close
dont like someone
dont like something

It Cant:

disappoint you.

hurt you.

let you down.

lead you on.

It works out easier.
Its easy to find things wrong with the world.
Negativity is in abundance.
Its hard to find beauty and postitive aspects to everything.

Sleep with one eye open.

So yesterday was the bride, bermuda and hospital the musical @utopia.

then bring me the horizon, the red shore and cancer bats@ the roundhouse .

At utopia the Lead singer of hospital the musical was CRAZY he thrashed around EVERYWHERE. it was an unforgettable set maybe that was their point?

The Bring Me The Horizon gig was better than i thought it would be, i think what killed it for me was a number of things:

*we waited in line for over an hour when we shouldve been let in. it was too cold.
*all of the filthy smokers smoking in the line. esp when we were under the shelter etc. twas so hard to breathe.
* before horizon came on alot of the crowd was screaming "Oli, Oli"
what the fuck?
*some random behind me kept screaming "oli you sexy boy i wanna have sex with you right now"

Epic fail.

But overall it was quite good, i enjoyed the cancer bats even though their frontman is filthy his hair makes me want to dry wretch.

TRACKWORK (N).

"Shit always happens nothing is ever good, its just the level of shit thats different"

Is It Progression If A Cannibal Uses A Fork?

School holidays are such a drag i cant go anywhere because i have work

but working means money

and what can i spend my money on?

Nothing.

I Find myself earning money, yet it seems to disappear.

On saturday i went to the bleached ep launch:

**got there WAY too early

**OHMYGODLOOKITSJAYSON!

**Awkward Turtle
**GROUPIES, now really ive seen some whoppers in my time but these girls took the cake.
"do they only sell emo stuff here?"
*squeals OMMMFFGG LOOK JAYSON IS STANDING LIKE RIGHHTTT OVER THERE
worst moshing ever and as for their head banging? a few of the lovely ladies got a little confused as to what genre they were listening to and as to what role they were playing they started to do that sexy hardcore headbang/spin/swing those sexy metal heads with long hair do.

**Girlfriends.

**Hormonal teenage girls.

**Dodgy tat artists.
**Amazing Photos

Overall it was an epic way to spend my saturday.

THIS SATURDAY, i hope to be buying some new shoes and a new jacket.

THEN. I'm going to a gig at the blacktown masonic centre or something rad like that

$15.9bands im damn excited.

im really digging Hiroshima Will Burn at the moment. Yes an insensitive name but hey they are damn good.

The age of the understatement.

Gilmore Girls marathon (Y)

brings up all kind of love.

Peer pressure umm, pressuring me to blog has made me actually blog

now i just cant figure out what to say.

Im full of angries and i love it :)
After over a month of being fine, im not anymore.
Why are you fine?
Why are you such a jackass now?

What did i do wrong to deserve your actions?
You're the one who did the wrong thing yet you make out im the bad guy.

Why am i the bad guy?
I should hate you.
You deserve to be hated, what your doing to me is what i should be doing to you.

You deserve nothing. yet you seem to have everything.
The day it comes crashing down is the day you finally get whats coming to you.
I should be over it and i am in a way.
Im over you as a person.
Im over what we used to be most of the time.
but im not over what your doing and what youve done.

What the fuck happened to you?

You treat people like shit you expect them to bow down to you. and for what? because you think you're better than them? Well wake up.

your the bad person. Your the one who should bow down to them for taking your shit.

And one day you will.
Until then

Keep living and treating people how you are.
because i cant wait to see it crash around you.

Your "perfect world" is going fucking down.

I Love you and Goodbye

hey, so you may of heard, and the rumors are true. Curtis Ward is no longer a member of bring me the horizon. This decision has been a long time coming, and although everything can look fine from the outside, theres been a problem for a long time. Over the last year especially, our touring schedule has been crazy, we are hardly ever at home, and for curtis, this proved very hard. we could see that curtis wasn't enjoying this band like the other 4 of us were anymore. It was nothing personal it was a decision that wasn't made lightly, but one that we believe is best for the band's future and for curtis's life. we wish curtis all the best in whatever he chooses to do in the future.but no one fear! the band will not be splitting up, this is something that we did to prevent the band from splitting up. we will still be doing all our future tours, currently finishing up taste of chaos with our good friend and guitar tech dean, who also looks abit like donkey kong.

Not mother fucking happy jan.

I've been bitching about this somewhat all week, i cannot get over it

he was deffo my fave. !!! OF ALL PEOPLE TO GET HOMESICK.

harden the fuck up princess.

okay. okay im kidding YES i am upset but its just how it is i guesses.
*sigh.

60th POST!

ahh just a quick one

SO MANY EXCELLENTAY GIGS THIS YEAR!

so far im going to

*Bring Me The Horizon-May 16
* The Getaway Plan- May 30th

* ALL TIME LOW- June 5th

Unsure of any more up-and-comings

Brokencyde and paramore are supposed to be here at the end of the year

so im fair pumped.

WHY CANT THE MAINE COME HERE

HOW COULD YOU DENY JOHN WITH A VOICE LIKE HIS!!

In Regards To Myself.

Cassie:You know what hurts the most about having a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before that. Try and keep that feeling because once it goes, You'll never get it back.

Jal: What happens then?

Cassie: Then you lay waste to the world and everything in it.

Im not usually a wallower. I dont like to feel sorry for myself.

Why should this be any different?

On the other hand not at school today.
Moving, Studies (assessments/half yearlies) and personal issues are causing somewhat minor breakdowns within my brain.

On yet another hand,

I GOT THE INTERVIEW FOR SELLING SHOW BAGS AT THE EASTER SHOWW!

It makes you tell the truth and stuff.

Such a longgg weekend. All i want to do is sleeps

FRIDAY:

Jackkyyy drove me to wongys house for her birthday party, THANK YOUUUUUUUUU !

Mucked around for ages it was pretty damn random, WONG YOU SICK PERVE TAKING PHOTOS OF MY BUM THEN DEVELOPING THEM!

I drank about three bottles of red bull (alcohol wasnt allowed) and just mucked around with jason, shain, chris and ginny, went driving to get pizza, made friends with the pizza chick.

Ate pizza with too much bbq sauce and then talked about lesbians.

Played spin the bottle, then chicken (not that eventful) CHRIS THE PANSY PATTYCAKE wouldnt kiss anyone LOL.

LEFT MY WALLET THERE, so i couldnt spend any money all weekend, which i must admit was a good idea cos, i need that money. but still

*tear.

SATURDAY:

Went to bankstownnnn with mum bought clothes for my sister to wear to lisa's engagement and tried to find clothes for myself and looked at stuff for the new house (SO EXCITED). Met a totallaayyee awesome chick that works at boost "OMG YOUR GOING TO HORIZON? ME TOO!!!". Got home, got ready for the mystical engagement party,caught the train to parra (we were running late HURRAY), walked to the place where we were at (the rsl i think?). Partied with my already intoxicated older cousins, mucked around and took random retarded luvos with my cousin leshay whilst piggy-backing her (in heels). Was a total random idiot, eyed up the really handsome half cousin of Lisa's Fiancee. I think his name was kevin. Went home, i think overall we waited for like an hour just to catch two trains to get home. I officially have blisters the size of twenty cent pieces on my feet and my whole body hurts from piggybacking kids allnight.

Also, as i was intoxicated, im sorry to anyone i texted, you know who you are. It was jsut one of those moments. Sorry.

SUNDAY:

Woke up hoping that my parents didnt hate each other after the mass fight they had when we got home. All was well. Fixed up my legal assessment and downloaded skins.

JJ's episode, every episode i watch, it becomes my fave. But i think this will probably stay a top 3 it was so deep and emotional. but seriously who hasnt had sex with each other yet. everyones pretty much had sex with another person in their group. COOK HAS A HEART

Cook: She loves you. But she can’t stand it. Can’t stand the love, so she fucks me instead.

I’m pissed off, yeah? She’s taking the piss and it’s hurting me. Cos Cook needs the love too. Cookie’s got nothing. Cookie’s always got nothing. That’s why I do her pal. That’s why I pop Panda. Panda’s popped. It’s always the same. Great tits Panda, great tits, Effy. That’s all I get cos I’m shit. I’m pure shit.

Ergh i need sleeepppss.

want me back.

Naomi: Sorry. It just.. isn't a goer.

Cook: Fair enough.

Naomi: Is that it? You're not even gonna try to convince me? Most guys would..

Cook: Most guys aren't me, babe. You fancy me, I'm cool with it. So there's obviously another reason why you won't fuck me, and it's probably a good one because you're, you know, clever..

Naomi: You're a lot nicer than most people think, Cook.

Cook: Fuck you.

Naomi: Fuck you right back

Emily: Twice. You're going to do this to me twice. Naomi, no. You fucking - stop right now! Don't you dare leave me in your bed again!
Naomi: I've got to go.
Emily: I know you, Naomi. I know you're lonely. I think you need someone to want you. Well, I do want you. So be brave.. and want me back

The two things that i totally love in the new ep of skins atm.

Isnt naomi just so pretty?