"i mean damn whats not to adore"

NEVERSHOUTNEVER...amazing i love it :) to the core. he is amazingly beautiful this song is so lovely.

Im in trouble

Im an addict Im addicted to this girl

Shes got my heart tied in a knot

And my stomach in a whirl

But even worse I cant stop calling her

Shes all I want and more

I mean damn Whats not to adore

there is an official clip for "bigcitydreams" on his myspace. cant see it on youtube though :(

Prada Or Frada?

I just read that everyone is a fake and are never who they really are.

In someways i can see the logic in a statement such as this. But i do disagree in most aspects, at one point or another a person will adopt unreal qualities and mannerisms, their reasoning for such an action?

First off can you define fake for me? Dictionary.com has many definitions for it how can i choose one that fits.. anything made to appear otherwise than it actually is; is the more fitting one for such a statement as above.

I think each situation is different to the next as is a person and their views, every action has a motive every experience has created personality traits that make you who you are. So to say that a person is a fake is an unfair accusation in all respects. I can honestly say that there are people who often change themselves in order to fit into a niche that they want. That can be viewed as fake can it not? But it is also change, this person is changing themselves. Who is to say that what they are now is who they really are as a person? They may be comfortable as who they are now. What or WHO are we to judge them .We say that people who alter themselves to fit in are fakes, but what of the people who have an addiction and then change themselves to benefit those around them, does the transformation they undertake thus make them fake also? Perhaps when they were high or drunk or on a trip etc. they felt as real as they could ever feel and now that they are sober they feel that they are not living how they really wanted to yet they live on transformed into something that makes us as a community feel safe. This to has the ability to be seen as fake, yet do we see it as fake if it benefits us?

I would be a right idiot if i believed that we were all who we really are supposed to be everyday of our lives. Though i think it is entirely wrong to ever call a person fake.

I'm sure anybody can be SEEN as a fake, but it all comes down to JUDGEMENT,

"let he who is without sin cast the first stone"** i think this is the ultimate quote said by Jesus Christ himself when a woman caught committing adultry was sentenced to be stoned to death. Although it is not entirely used in the same context now it fits. As the statement says everybody is a fake yet if we call another a fake, what are we to label ourselves? If the statement is to have a ring of acceptance from me i say this. Do we have the right to judge someone when we ourselves are no different to who they are (or who they are pretending to be) ?

Im really tired right now..i maybe contradicting myself. Do tell me if i am.

**He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her

"somethings gotta happen to start us off"

Skins season three is out in the UK in a few days and im super excited i will be streaming ASAP. It looks set to be insanley wild and insane and i cannot wait. The cast looks really good there is nothing really negative about anyof them anyway here they are!!:

Thomas: He wasnt in the sneak peak so im not certain about his role yet.
PANDORA! was in the second season with effy, boy has she changed ill try and locate a season two photo of her she was amazingly retarded.

Naomi: Somewhat of a jal i think but god i love her attitude already "sorry im NOT a babe"

Katie: The wilder of the twins (emily) Never not had a boyfriend since she was 7


Karen: Freddy's sister i think she is amazingly pretty. Not much on her yet.

JJ: He seems to be a major mystery. But a pretty mystery he is.

Freddy: Is such a fit young lad :) he seems very sincere and patient. Broken heart waiting to happen.

Emily! the innocent twin never had a boyfriend and seems to me that she is not a friend of naomi's

Cook: Seems to be Tony and chris rolled into one i see the cocky-ness that tony has in him but also the wild party side that chris has. All in all. Very good (Y)

EFFY is damn hot and she is Tony's sister she is the rebel and someone i think im going to love to hate.

NOW FOR THE SNEAK PEAK



"Its got potential this day..It's pregnant"-Cook.

BETTER YET FIRST PART OF THE SEASON

I Will Admit,

that my entry the other day was and still is harsh and irrational. Im not entirely sure if i meant all of what i said, not only about my frustrations towards a certain person or about my frustrations towards myself. I have noticed a sudden influx of mood swings and outburts of anger and i honestly dont hate everybody.

As you guys will see, ive tweaked my page to look a little less white and a little more red and black? Typical emo colours ahaha but it was totally purple first time round. Im having a hard time deciding on images for my header, with that i have decided to re-take up photography. Im looking for new things to experience this year, and i feel THIS IS A KEEPER! Im learning to skate thanks to my darling tuna fish and i hope to learn guitar (that wont happen as jordan crudely pointed out). 2009 can and will be wild that i assure you.

Today was a fair good day, went to Glebe with Clara and Wong. Before we even arrived at the markets we had already purchased mass amounts of books 'Impulse' by Ellen Hopkins. As you can see i put a quote from her book on my side panel thingy i really like what it says, despite the fact that it seems really "hey dont be a pansy try harder to kill yourself next time" it somewhat has a deeper meaning, "dont do the minimal to get what you really want..go that extra mile, shoot that extra guy etc." I also Got a book called 'Adverb' im not sure who its by because it is not next to me at the moment. I got some rad purchases, LEE denim (highwaisted it seems) shorts $10, Purple zebra-ish print sunnies $10 (looks better than it sounds), Pin-stripped Vest $15, 'Soap' Purple Printed tee (record player) $10 and homemade lemonade+some really cool pastry unsure of what its called it had walnuts in it yummy $8. I ran into some really cool people today i really wish i took photos of some of them, despite really cute stall owners there were some scene chicks i loved their style i can genuinley say they had some of their own style not some version of what scene kids are supposed to look like. Skaters OMGSH they had some balls skating down stairs time after time KNOWING they were going to stack it, yes they were cute but the skating had me before the looks.

TASTE OF CHAOS 2009 MAY NOT BE COMING TO AUSTRALIA! I'm not 100% yet but at the moment it seems like they arent and i am PISSED OFF. BRING ME THE HORIZON AND PIERCE THE VEIL are apart of the line up the line up is currently: Thursday, BMTH, Pierce the veil, Cancer Brats and Four year strong. Personally i like the lineup, all of those bands are fair awesome. BUT BMTH AND PTV ARE THE REASON I MUST GO!

Okay im extremely tired right now, 1:22 AM. Sleep is ESSENTIAL.

Oh Oli.

okay so like not a proper post yet or anything i was just on flickr and i came across this random photo its totally adorable! yes i am jealous on the photo comments the authour (her dad) was saying that he was gonna give her a kiss on the cheek but she wasnt having any of it and that he and his eldest daughter like BMTH but she hates em!! ITS NOT FAIR I (L) HORIZON AND HE OFFERS TO KISS HER ON THE CHEEK AND SHE DOESNT EVEN LIKE THEM :@:@:@.

will blog aboutmy day later.

Im not bitter this shows i care

Honestly right now there is one thing on my mind thats really pissing me off.
I hate people, well most people. The people i do love and care for...you know who you are i love you.

But you, honestly we have never even met but everything ive heard you deserve to be called what i called you. It was a joke, do you know what one of those are? Clearly not. I was simply joking around after hearing what you did to one of the few people i care for, maybe there was some truth and honest opinion in the nickname but honestly get over it.

Hate me i dont give a fuck enough people hate me and im down with that at least i know who my friends are. To get your boyfriend to voice your opinion of me is bloody immature, if it wasnt for him telling me to drop it i would be confronting you and trying to make it somewhat okay. But why should i bother? Youre making a massive deal out of nothing making a mountain out of a molehill as they say. Maybe im doing the same by blogging my thoughts making it a bigger problem. But i need to get it off my chest.

I like totally love you right?

yeah yeah im back, blah blah blah

long time no blog jessica where have you been?

ON WHAT YOU PEOPLE CALL A HIATUS?

Ive taken yet another personality change maybe we should call it a new found perspective. certain events causing said hiatus has changed me as a person. Ive found im a very angry person now, antisocial and quite often hard to amuse, i found that many people who i once really really liked or was really close to really really piss me off i see major flaws major things that i was once blinded by. I think heaps of people are sick of my shit i think heaps of people really dislike me but good on ya! (H) chances are i hate you too. Once a glass is half full kinda lass, im now a the glass can be whatever the fuck it wants to be. doesnt change the fact that im gonna drink it and it soon will be empty.

I need a new years reso dont i? Gosh what should it be? Should i be a cliche?

"LOOSE WEIGHT"
"FIND LOVE"

"GET A BETTER JOB"

Okay firstly i dont see myself as fat. Secondly ive found love. Thirdly..yeah i hate my job but im not obsessed with getting a better job.

My new years resolution:
"go with the flow, calm the fuck down, grow bigger balls, confront those who piss you off, fuck everyone else, be who you want to be"
Its 2009 baby. you guys better watch out.

Im making it wild.